Even though I was told to pack a bag just in case and I did, in the back of my mind I really didn’t expect that it would be needed. There was a lot of waiting around and there was even talk of postponing it until the next day…..then we got the call. The judge was ready.
I entered the dock calmly trying not to interrupt the silence of courtroom. Although the room was full of people, I couldn’t feel their presence….I felt alone.
The judge addressed me saying it was an incredible shame that someone of my character should find himself in this position. The tone of his voice deflating and any hope I had of walking out of the courtroom a free man. Anxiety building, I took one last look around at the faces in the courtroom took a deep breath and then the words came….”I am left with no choice but to send you to prison!”…..an atomic bomb went off!
A surge of energy pulsed through my body, the mushroom cloud rose…devastation. What followed felt surreal. I was guided downstairs to the chaos of officers escorting prisoners, processing paperwork and carrying on with their work as normal. Exactly what I was feeling at that moment I don’t know but it was poetic and humbling. Going through what felt like a total destruction of my world and facing the reality that it didn’t even cause a stutter to those in my presence.
I was in a trance throughout this process. I was conscious of where I was and was responding to the instructions to empty my pockets but was in a daze and staring blankly into space.
I was staring in the direction of an officer, who I remember was the size of a bear, who was sitting at his desk doing some paperwork. Although I wasn’t looking at him I was looking in his direction. He paused from his work for a moment to meet my gaze and asked “Are you alright mate?” Without even waiting for a reply he carried on working. It was at this point that I snapped out of my trance and said NO!
What followed was 6 of the most challenging months of my life to date but a welcomed challenge. Although I would never in a million years choose prison as place of learning, I am truly grateful for the experience and am now looking forward to the rest of my life.
Given the love I have for music, I managed to find a way to record while in there. These songs will never be available sale and I was hesitant to even play them to anyone but I’m a changed man so here you go.
I hope you enjoy.
If you like the track you might also consider checking out The Second Son. It’s my latest album and it’s full of more of my music.
Respect Your Legacy
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